Worst Enemy Vs. Best Friend

What has happened to mother/daughter relationships? What has happened to the days of the past where mothers taught their daughters how to be polite young women, good wives, and great mothers? What has happened to the friendship between a mother and her daughter? My entire life there is nothing more I have ever wanted than to have that type of mother. My mom and I have always had a different type of relationship. It isn't a bad one but it isn't how I picture my relationship with my daughter at all. My mom and dad divorced when I was very small and that was a rough experience for everyone involved. It wasn't a civil divorce by no means. I think if the divorce wouldn't have happened they would have eventually killed each other. My relationship with both of my parents has been rocky on and off through my life. My mom wasn't there for a lot of important events because she lived in a different state. But, I know she wanted to be. My father, he was always always there, never missed a single game I cheered at or a choir concert. He was always there. My parents are like 2 opposite ends of parenting. My mom was like my best friend but not a parent, my dad was a great parent but my worst enemy. My step mom taught me how to be a good wife and how to take care of our home and how to cook and clean. Although the cooking runs in my blood :) we are excellent cooks in my family. My step father called me his little girl and treated me like a princess and I never had rules. I had to find a good balance between the two very different types of parenting to make me who I am today. My fear is that I will either be Kadence's worst enemy or her best friend. I am worried I won't be able to find the balance between the two. Everyone says that instinct will kick in and I will really surprise myself and for once, I hope everyone else is right.

This Part of My Story is Almost Over...

Yesterday I registered for classes at the U of O. I am majoring in strategic communications and I think I have found a major that will be a perfect fit for me and my future.I loved my advisor and I am so very excited to finish my education there. I will be a sophomore for a semester and a JUNIOR by the spring! YAY! I think the U of O is going to be an excellent fit for me. I'm thrilled to finish the college chapter of my life! My husband is also going back to school. He is taking summer courses at Arkansas Tech this summer and when we both start U of O in the fall he will be a SENIOR!! I am very happy for him (and maybe a little bit jealous) :) As July gets closer and closer another chapter of my life is coming to a close as well, my pregnancy. On Tuesday, I will be 32 weeks/8 months. Although I still have 5-8 weeks left I can't believe how fast this pregnancy has gone by. At times it feels like it is just dragging on and I feel like I have been pregnant forever but looking back from the day we found out it feels like it was just yesterday! I honestly can't wait to hold our little girl and begin that new chapter of our lives but I will miss her being in my belly so very much. I love feeling her move and knowing that she is 100% safe at all times. Right now she is all mine and I don't have to share her at all (although sometimes I sure wish my husband could carry her for awhile- especially when its soo humid or when heartburn flares up!) The end of this chapter is bittersweet for me but we are oh so ready!

Moody Monday

Normally when people see the word moody they automatically think bad mood but, this mood of mine today is beyond GREAT! Today is my first day as a stay at home wife and soon to be mom. While I only get to enjoy this for the summer, before returning to college, I am thrilled. I have a million things I would like to accomplish before our little girl gets here but I want to relax and enjoy this time while I can. This week is a pretty busy week and I have a lot of things going on but I'm ready to get it started. We are still working on home improvements and I have several errands to run around town but I am ecstatic to do it all. I never thought I wanted to be a stay at home mom or wife but I might just reconsider my previous statement. Well, off to get ready and start my new day and this new "job"!