Worst Enemy Vs. Best Friend

What has happened to mother/daughter relationships? What has happened to the days of the past where mothers taught their daughters how to be polite young women, good wives, and great mothers? What has happened to the friendship between a mother and her daughter? My entire life there is nothing more I have ever wanted than to have that type of mother. My mom and I have always had a different type of relationship. It isn't a bad one but it isn't how I picture my relationship with my daughter at all. My mom and dad divorced when I was very small and that was a rough experience for everyone involved. It wasn't a civil divorce by no means. I think if the divorce wouldn't have happened they would have eventually killed each other. My relationship with both of my parents has been rocky on and off through my life. My mom wasn't there for a lot of important events because she lived in a different state. But, I know she wanted to be. My father, he was always always there, never missed a single game I cheered at or a choir concert. He was always there. My parents are like 2 opposite ends of parenting. My mom was like my best friend but not a parent, my dad was a great parent but my worst enemy. My step mom taught me how to be a good wife and how to take care of our home and how to cook and clean. Although the cooking runs in my blood :) we are excellent cooks in my family. My step father called me his little girl and treated me like a princess and I never had rules. I had to find a good balance between the two very different types of parenting to make me who I am today. My fear is that I will either be Kadence's worst enemy or her best friend. I am worried I won't be able to find the balance between the two. Everyone says that instinct will kick in and I will really surprise myself and for once, I hope everyone else is right.

This Part of My Story is Almost Over...

Yesterday I registered for classes at the U of O. I am majoring in strategic communications and I think I have found a major that will be a perfect fit for me and my future.I loved my advisor and I am so very excited to finish my education there. I will be a sophomore for a semester and a JUNIOR by the spring! YAY! I think the U of O is going to be an excellent fit for me. I'm thrilled to finish the college chapter of my life! My husband is also going back to school. He is taking summer courses at Arkansas Tech this summer and when we both start U of O in the fall he will be a SENIOR!! I am very happy for him (and maybe a little bit jealous) :) As July gets closer and closer another chapter of my life is coming to a close as well, my pregnancy. On Tuesday, I will be 32 weeks/8 months. Although I still have 5-8 weeks left I can't believe how fast this pregnancy has gone by. At times it feels like it is just dragging on and I feel like I have been pregnant forever but looking back from the day we found out it feels like it was just yesterday! I honestly can't wait to hold our little girl and begin that new chapter of our lives but I will miss her being in my belly so very much. I love feeling her move and knowing that she is 100% safe at all times. Right now she is all mine and I don't have to share her at all (although sometimes I sure wish my husband could carry her for awhile- especially when its soo humid or when heartburn flares up!) The end of this chapter is bittersweet for me but we are oh so ready!

Moody Monday

Normally when people see the word moody they automatically think bad mood but, this mood of mine today is beyond GREAT! Today is my first day as a stay at home wife and soon to be mom. While I only get to enjoy this for the summer, before returning to college, I am thrilled. I have a million things I would like to accomplish before our little girl gets here but I want to relax and enjoy this time while I can. This week is a pretty busy week and I have a lot of things going on but I'm ready to get it started. We are still working on home improvements and I have several errands to run around town but I am ecstatic to do it all. I never thought I wanted to be a stay at home mom or wife but I might just reconsider my previous statement. Well, off to get ready and start my new day and this new "job"!

Love my life

  While no one truly loves working I honestly can't complain much about my job. I take care of 7 children at a dermatologists office. I love each and everyone of the kids I work with and the other 2 girls I work with are equally great. We get to do some truly fun activities at work and the sayings and ideas that these kids come up with crack me up. This morning we created treasure hunts for one another. It was a rainy, chilly day so we had to occupy ourselves inside which with kids can be a struggle but we made it a truly great day. The kids were so funny coming up with unique little clues to lead one another to the "treasures". Their treasures were as simple as an apple or one of their favorite toys but they had an absolute blast looking for the different clues that lead to their finale clue and their treat. I miss when I was little and could be so entertained with such a small, easy activity. But, being with these kids all day let me use my imagination again and I get to bring out my inner child to do my job to the best of my ability each and everyday. I can't wait until my daughter is here and my husband and I get to do all these silly fun activities with her. My job takes a ton of patience and some days I truly don't know how I can go in but its days like today that make me truly appreciate this perfect job opportunity that God has given me.

  What I'm looking for in this blog is to attract many young expecting or new moms and to get opinions and advice from experienced moms. I want a place where I can write all my new experiences in hopes someday I will look back on all this and smile. I guess the best place to start is finding out I was a newly expecting mother.
  November 5th, 2010 at about 8-9 that evening is when I took my first at home test. I peed on that dang stick and the one little pink line came up right away so I thought everything was going to be just fine. I put the test down and continued to wash my hands. By the time I was done washing my hands and cleaning up the box and instructions the other faint little pink line came through. (And yes I did try to shake the test like it was an etch a sketch.) Scared and shaking, I went into the bedroom to let Dylan know that we were expecting a baby. He didn't react the way was expecting but, to be honest, I had no idea what I was expecting. I know seeing two lines on that stick was not it. I didn't exactly believe the first test either or maybe I was just in denial but I asked Dylan take me to Wal-Mart so I could buy more. I think he was under the impression I was just running in to buy another test, however, I came out with 3 more. We went home and took another one that night, the 3rd that next morning, and the 4th Sunday morning. All with the same results as the first test.
 I can't even begin to describe my feelings at that point. I was scared to death and had no idea what I was going to do with a baby. But, I was also excited. I knew I wanted children someday I just didn't expect to be 20 and a sophomore in college when my first baby decided to come along. Although, who's ever truly ready for their first child? So, Monday morning we went to the Dr and she confirmed my results from the 4 at home tests that I took. Laughing that I took so many in the first place. It was official, I was going to be a mommy. We scheduled the first ultrasound to figure out how far along I was and to see this little miracle that Dylan and I created. We were both scared to death but we were both excited about our baby and this new phase of our lives we were now entering into. We had no idea what we were going to do or how we were going to afford a baby but, in the end, everything works out just how it was always meant to be.

Variety Is The Spice of Life

  Lately, I've been tossing and turning at night over who I am and who I want to be, what I want to do with my life and how I'm going to get where I want to be. But, I have figured out there is no point in trying to figure it all out. We are taught all our lives that we need to have a plan, we need to pick a career, go to college, get a degree, and then settle down and start our new successful lives. In my opinion, that can't be reality for everyone. The problem: LIFE HAPPENS.
  Every time I make a plan it falls through or I let myself or others down so for the next year I have decided to do exactly what makes me happy and see where that gets me. Starting with this blog. I love to write and it's one of my favorite hobbies so I'm hoping that this blog is going to be a good experience for me. I know this blog will be just one of the many joys that the year of 2011 brings me.
  I picked the title Variety Is The Spice of Life in hopes that this blog will have a ton of variety and bring variety to my life. This year I am going to challenge myself to accomplish several new and interesting goals I have set for myself. However, we all know that setting goals is an easy way to set yourself up for failure and disaster but with this blog I'm hoping to stick with my goals and I'm hoping to learn to grab life by the horns and just go for it. :)